am i asking to much ?

i just wanna be loved and cared for. is that to much to ask ? things gotten better after encounter but with one person i wanted things to get better, it got way worse. i give love and in return i get pain. is that fair ? did i do something wrong to deserve something like this. is it a bad thing for me to be in a good relationship or is it another punishment. am i allowed to be happy? or is it illegal just for me ? cuz im just that special these days. so special that i get the total opposite of what i want.